I absolutely adore you, baby.

You always makes me fall in love deeper and deeper with you.

We fight hard but we love even harder.

Thanks for being so patience with me.

Thanks for loving me ever so deep despite knowing what kinda person I am.

Thanks for loving me for who I am.

And thanks for trying to understand my feelings even though it can be really hard sometimes.

Sometimes I know, I can be a real pain in the ass.

I'm demanding. ( I demand you to spent time with me! )

I'm selfish. ( Hates to share you with anyone else! )

I question alottttttt. (why,when,who,where,how )

But still! You know you still love me.

Right babyyyyyyyy????

I'm irreplaceble righttttttt???

Hehehe.

I love you, my one and only, Sweetest Love.

I love u and only you.

Im looking at the drawing that you gave to me on my birthday, the photos of you on my wall, the love letters that you wrote to me for the past 14 months, the diaries that I wrote which was all about you and last but not least, the necklace that you bought for our first.

All of them are my prize possesion that can never be replace. Even if it can be replace, it will never be the same.

We've gone through so much in life. The ups and downs. The worst side of you and me. The happy times we shared for the past years. We've grown a lot from an individual. I will always cherish the happy times we had. Something that can never ever be replace in my heart. And no one can ever take that memories from me.

We promised each other forever and ever. We talked about marriage. We talked about the future. A future that we are so sure it will include the both of us. Deep down, i want all that to happen. But as a human, i've made mistakes, i lost my temper, i do things in anger that I regret, i say things that I dont mean. And maybe whatever i did change everything that we had.

I love you so much. With all my heart and soul. I've never ever love a man like this before. You are my first and i hope, my last and only.

Whatever that is gonna happen next, I leave it to God. And I know whatever that He choose for us is the best.

I love you Md Faizrul. I really do. I'm sorry for everything that i've done.

Since you have done NOTHING to make things better or make it known to your friends.
Then let me be the one to take control.

DON'T SAY I DIDN'T GIVE YOU ANY TIME. I DID SO MANY TIMES.
YOU WON'T LIKE IT IF I TAKE CONTROL.

A reminder.

Doesn't mean a couple who has been together for years, they automatically are meant for each other. Things can happen. Just because you think she will be there no matter what, you can take advantage. Spending lesser times together, doesnt really take care of her like what you promised. She has feelings too. Shes not a doll where you can have her whenever you want and throw her away when you have someone else.

You want respect, you earn it. You want people to treat you good, you treat others good too. Dont expect people to be good to you when you treat them like shit.

Cherish her and treat her like how she deserve before she find someone else who will.

Never make someone a priority when you're just an option.

I'm probably just an option now. Because you spends all your free time with them. While you only spends a few hours with me twice a week. And always saying that you're busy and always have plans with your friends. There's always a plan when you're with them but gets clueless whenenever it comes to me.

Maybe we're having this 3 yr itch in our relationship. Him taking you for granted because he knows you will be there no matter what. He stops doing all the chasing because he already got u. And you're not going anywhere no matter how shitty things are. Doesn't mean we are already together for a long time, you can stop doing what you did when we just started dating. And sorry to burst your bubble but I WILL WALK AWAY IF YOU DO NOTHING ABOUT IT. Motherfucker.

I'm just so sick of this! And his stupid friend who just don't get it. Doesn't mean you're single and ALWAYS free, my bf is too! Hello?? He's fucking attached you fucking moron. Find someone who is ALWAYS FREE TO ACCOMPANY YOU ANYWHERE, ANYTIME. Asshole.

Fuck this shit!! I'm fucking tired of trying to make him understand how I fucking feel about this.

What's bothering me?
Why do I feel so angry all the time?
Why does little things makes me so angry till I can's even control myself?
Why is my anger getting out on control nowadays?
What's happening? Am I going through some depression? But why?
Some hormonal changes going on?? Fuck it.

I just wanna be alone.

Sometimes when you get hurt, something inside you just shut off.

I think what hurts the most is having the perfect picture of how things could be, should be…but aren't.

Sometimes you just need to distance yourself from people. If they care, they’ll notice. If they don’t, you know where you stand.

All I want is for you to be the boy that fights for me, that wants me and will do anything to be with me. I want to be your only exception.

Sometimes, the smallest things take up the most room in your heart.

You get in the biggest fights with the people you care the most because those are the relationships you are willing to fight for.

Stay home Sunday.

Had a good time with Love yesterday after work. Finished at 11.30pm. Decided to have some supper so he brought me to East Coast Food Centre. Let's just say I prefer Newton. Most of the shops were closing or already closed by then. Chose to eat Satay! Not much. Just 10 pieces. And we talked and talked. After that we continued our chilling session by the beach, under the stars. And talked about us. Hehe. DUH. Our favourite subject.

I love how the both of us can communicate without keeping things that we're unhappy about. Well, especially ME! Hahaha. And it's a good thing that he understands why I'm unhappy with certain things. It's good to build a strong communication between partners. Without communication, everything will go down sooner or later. And to me, some issues are pretty big but to him, it's still tolerable. I know sometimes I might be naggy. OH I KNOW. I hate how naggy I am sometimes. But I'm naggy with a reason. I just hope our relationship will last till Eternity. Insyallah.

Had our 'miang' session after all those talks. Heh. As usual lah kan. He's working today. Hopefully he remembers to buy my Iphone cable later after work. My Iphone charger is dying veryyyy soon. The wires has gone haywire and it's so freaking hard to charge my Iphone! Aite. Laters!

Oh ya. We turned 3 years and 4 months yesterday.
I LOVE YOU MD FAIZRUL. WITH ALL MY HEART, SOUL, BODY AND MIND!

xoxo

A lil update.

I've been thinking..... Let's go for a holiday next year!!!! Yes, I badly want this to happen. Like reallyyy badly!!!

Since my mum has already approved of me travelling, then why not?! But it will be happen middle of next year. And since our hopes of travelling didn't come true this year, there's always next year!

I need to start planning and save! Must save atleast 1k. And the best is to book the air tickets now! The earlier, the cheaper.

So who's up for this?!
Already asked him and he said see how. Hmmm.. Of cos lah see how. He hasn't even find any jobs yet!! I can't help him if he doesn't wanna help himself. If he don't wanna go, I shall go with the gfs then!!

The best thing to do when you're angry is to go to sleep.
So that you will not do or say anything foolish that will make you regret for the rest of your life.

Baby, I love you still.

Harry Potter was alright yesterday. I didn't quite catch their names. Too many characters! But the digital effects was awesome! Can't wait for the Part 2. And now I'm waiting for Twilight next movie. Thanks boyfriend for giving in my request.

Why can't we behave like that every single day? Like those totally new couple who's deep inlove? I love just the way you are but sometimes lu buat darah gua naik but that's ok. Same2 buat darah each other naik ok paaaa?

Wanted to say TGIF but unfortunately I'm on half day tomorrow. DAMN!! And after that, working from 5 till 2. Oh golly.

Happy weekends all!

I H♥TE YOU.

I've given you everything that you've asked for.

Don't you ever take advantage of it. And don't you ever cross MY LINE.
I shall see how long and how far will you go.

If I erupt like a volcano, just don't blame me. Blame yourself.

Selamat Hari Raya Haji everyone!

Had a wonderful day today. Family outing/a visit to Grandma's. After sending my bro to Pasir Ris, we head down to Changi Airport to walk around and just chill. Parents, small bro and my uncle. It's really funny to see that my mum gets excited when it comes to my brother. Small bro tells me that she slept with bro's pillow on the first day when he went to Tekong. Hahaha. And she literally kept looking at her phone to see if my brother would call. It's really funny and sweet though. Took a family photo with him wearing the uniform! Haha.

Oh, my appetite for today kinda scares me. I ate 2 full meals which is very rare nowadays. And gets hungry pretty fast! 1 hour after the meal, my stomach will start to growl. Damn. I wished this happens every single day! Can't wait for next month. Will be having a seafood feast early next month with my mum's side as one of my uncle is going to Jakarta and he wants to treat us all. And my cousin who is the same age as me is getting married on the 24th. Best kan?! When the hell is my turn eh?? I can only hope and dream about it I guess. And lastly, Zoukout! Can't wait for that!

Oh well, back to work tomorrow.

As you can see, my new blog is very simple. Well, I'm over those fancy2 templates and stuff. I'm 22 years old already ok. No need to use glitter words and such. Heh.

I just need a place for me to rant. And this will be my new place starting from now. =)